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science fiction is not pretend

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A gif of around ten brown and white horses galloping in a pack across a wide open plane. The landscape is green and beige, with a flat ridge on the horizon and a blue sky dotted with pale white clouds.
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A gif shot vertically on an iphone. The camera is unsteady. A close up of green leaves and stems of a plant dappled with sunlight. The stems of the plant are covered with tiny aphids both dead and alive. The camera zooms in to show black ants farming the aphids, approaching each one and sucking up the honeydew that it produces.

my grandson bought an acre of land farmed
by ants ranching aphids12
wrangling the beasts for honeydew

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Website: Survival Condo

'Atlas Missile Silo turned Luxury Condos'

visit site: https://survivalcondo.com/overview/

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massive tax hikes and uninsurable wine cellars1

Building a Tent-Safe Copper Coil Alcohol Heater

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Heater Bloc’s Guide to Building a Tent-Safe Copper Coil Alcohol Heater

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i saw a lake burning1

bodies boiling in the water

a-journal-of-lesbian-and-gay-studies-volume-21-queer-inhumanisms.pdf

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unknown author

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Unknown author. The meme is split into a grid of 4 sections. In the top left section, two glove puppets are looking sad, and text reads “NOOOOOPE NOPE NOPE”. In the top right section, text reads “Succumbing to alienation under capitalism concluding that the world is empty and meaningless” In the bottom right section, the same two glove puppets have their mouths open as if in astonishment, they are blurred as if they may be in the middle of nodding, and text reads “YUP YUP YUUUP YUP”. In the bottom right section, text reads “Building caring long-lasting relationships with chosen friends and family and collectively cultivating our visions of a just world”

A journal of lesbian gay studies: volume 21, 23 june 2015

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how can i make you feel better about myself?12

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Website: irresistible

'irresistible: 35 Practice: Mad Maps with The Icarus Project’s Rhiana Anthony'

visit site: https://irresistible.org/podcast/35penglish

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Website: BBC News UK

'Covid: Disabled people account for six in 10 deaths in England last year - ONS'

visit site: https://www.bbc.com/news/uk-56033813

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at some point you either have to get on board
or get gone12

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Website: MattMorris.com

'Top 20 Best Self Help Books of All Time'

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what is your Big Vision for your life?1

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Plastic bottles of vitamin water in various bright colors pop up on the screen. The labels bear the inscription "Vitamin Water. Their design has a "cool" feel and at the same time quotes the style of health drinks.
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Plastic bottles of vitamin water in various bright colors pop up on the screen. The labels bear the inscription "Vitamin Water. Their design has a "cool" feel and at the same time quotes the style of health drinks.
Plastic bottles of vitamin water in various bright colors pop up on the screen. The labels bear the inscription "Vitamin Water. Their design has a "cool" feel and at the same time quotes the style of health drinks.
Plastic bottles of vitamin water in various bright colors pop up on the screen. The labels bear the inscription "Vitamin Water. Their design has a "cool" feel and at the same time quotes the style of health drinks.
Plastic bottles of vitamin water in various bright colors pop up on the screen. The labels bear the inscription "Vitamin Water. Their design has a "cool" feel and at the same time quotes the style of health drinks.
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coping skills lost in the flood by ca conrad

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coping skills lost in the flood by ca conrad

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make a list of 5 small tasks

you can accomplish today

take that list shove it in your mouth and swallow1

wash it down with vitamin water2

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donate my body to science1

“Pareidolia (Vaccinate Now)” by Brothers Sick (Ezra and Noah Benus)

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An image with 2 sets of silhouettes of a face, torso, and a hand holding a syringe, one in black and one in white mirroring each other against a grayscale pixelated background. On top are two upside down silhouettes sitting atop of the same image flipped over horizontally. The silhouettes point to one another, as if in a whisper with the syringe, needle tipped as a vector towards the center of the image. The negative space In the center of the photograph, is similar to an ink blot pattern. The text in the center in the largest font says “Vaccinate Now” in metallic black, white, and gray variants, sandwiching another smaller text in between the two words, reads ”Global Inoculation Against Viral Fascism”. Text on top of the image reads “Stop Rationing Care” “Stop Medical Apartheid”, and on the bottom of the image text reads “End Eugenics” “End Vaccine Hoarding”. The layout of words and silhouettes create a contour of an hourglass shape, connoting time is of the essence.

all of the scientists
drowning in wastewater1

And the Band Played On: Politics, People, and the AIDS Epidemic

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"the Journal of the American Medical Association would just have to wait until the research was published in six months"

Excerpt from "And the Band Played On: Politics, People, and the AIDS Epidemic" by Randy Shilts

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'And the Band Played On: Politics, People, and the AIDS Epidemic' by Randy Shilts

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all of the experts
waiting to be published1

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Google document: Half Assed Disabled Prepper Tips for Preparing for a Coronavirus Quarantine

By Leah Piepzna-Samarasinha

visit site: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1rIdpKgXeBHbmM3KpB5NfjEBue8YN1MbXhQ7zTOLmSyo/mobilebasic?utm_source=Week+of+March+16&utm_campaign=Highlander+VFTH+March+2020&utm_medium=email

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website: live like the world is dying

S1E35 – Casandra on Food Preserveration

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Half Assed Disabled Prepper Survival Tips for Preparing for a Coronavirus Quarrantine

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stop apologising and get busy stockpiling your
basement with beans12

Females by Andrea Long Chu

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Females by Andrea Long Chu

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i swallowed the cannon and never got up again1
it ripped through my deck and my feet
touched the lava and I ran out of lives

Whore Foods by LA WARMAN

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A bright turquoise book cover of the book WHORE FOODS by LA WARMAN, the title is written above and below a painting of a table spread with a lot of fancy looking food. On the table, on top of the food, two people are naked having sex. One person lies on their back, the other is on all fours on top of them. The person on their back is spreading open the butt cheeks and genitals of the person above them. Both have ecstatic expressions on their faces.

WHORE FOODS by LA WARMAN

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come hither and take me into your mouth1

Infect Your Friends and Loved Ones

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A light pink book cover reads ‘A Novella by Torrey Peters, Infect Your Friends and Loved Ones’ in a retro style with candy coloured blue and pink text. On the cover, a dead pig’s head rests on a stone. The pig has t4t tattooed on its forehead.

My Words to Victor Frankenstein Above...

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Infect Your Friends and Loved Ones, A Novella by Torrey Peters

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MY WORDS TO VICTOR FRANKENSTEIN ABOVE THE VILLAGE OF CHAMOUNIX PERFORMING TRANSGENDER RAGE by Susan Stryker

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i am host virus vessel void1
don’t worry it’s not contagious2

Gathering Moss

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"Mosses may lose up to 98 percent of their moisture, and still survive to restore themselves when water is replenished. Even after forty years of dehydration in a musty specimen cabinet, mosses have been fully revived after a dunk in a petri dish. Mosses have a covenant with change; their destiny is linked to the vagaries of rain."

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Gathering Moss: A Natural and Cultural History of Mosses by Robin Wall Kimmerer

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the lake is boiling again
1000 years of fog
osmoting into the future1

10 Principles of Disability Justice

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10 Principles of Disability Justice from Sins Invalid

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we are not united in the hating of the enemy
if that enemy is my body1

‘Toxic King’ on twitter

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A screenshot of a twitter post by ‘Toxic King’, handle @777jorgeivan, shared by Saar Shemesh. White text on a black background reads: 'First I was born without my permission, now my future is in my hands wtf'

@justeveilfishposts on instagram

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‘doctor peanut’ on twitter

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A screenshot of a twitter post by ‘doctor peanut’, handle @NINETIREDBUGS Black text on a white background reads 'so fucked to look at a baby and know that someday they too will have an email address'

i did all my gratitudes and i can still smell the
smoke123

A World of Many Worlds

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A black book cover is emblazoned with a galaxy of swirling dots in whites, reds and yellows. Text reads ‘A World of Many Worlds: Marisol de la Cadena & Mario Blaser, Editors’

A World of Many Worlds by Marisol de la Cadena & Mario Blaser

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there’s only so much you can ask a person
to let go of1

The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
The black and white microscopic image of a tardigrade moves across the screen. The elongated tardigrade has a caterpillar-like structure. It has eight tiny legs with large white claws. Its nose resembles a round socket or the nozzle of a vacuum cleaner. Overall, the tardigrade resembles a dusty, swimming worm-shaped mole with nicely textured, wrinkled skin.
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Website: poetryproject.org

poem by danilo machado

visit site: https://www.poetryproject.org/publications/the-recluse/issue-18/danilo-machado

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'poem upon re-leasing a handful of painted walls in not-mine crown heights in not-mine brooklyn in not-mine new york in not-mine united states' by Danilo Machado

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who is living inside you?12

Mary Maggic: Open Source Estrogen

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Website: Indigenous Anarchist Federation

'Basic Wilderness Fieldcraft: Skills For Revolutionary Survival No.9'

visit site: https://iaf-fai.org/2021/01/19/basic-wilderness-fieldcraft/

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Website: POWER MAKES US SICK

'Resources page'

visit site: https://pms.hotglue.me/?resources

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Website: Spotify: How to Survive the End of the World podcast

'Episode: Centering at the End of the World'

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Website: irresistible

'irresistible: 12 Practice: Somatic Centering with Sumitra Rajkumar'

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Website: Twitter post from Imani Barbarin, MAGC | Crutches&Spice ♿️

'It’s almost like the effects of racism and white supremacy effect us all… '

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Spotify Podcast

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imani barbarin

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grow your own specialist12
be your only believer3456

Deaf Republic by Ilya Kaminsky

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A bright red book cover reads 'Ilya Kaminsky, Deaf Republic' in large turquoise and grey serif font.

Deaf Republic by Ilya Kaminsky

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A gif shows a homevideo from the 70s or 80s of three white skinned children aged around 8 or 9 sitting at a table for a birthday party. Two of the children blow out the candles on a huge rectangular birthday cake. Smoke rises from the blown out candles and a third child fans the smoke away with their hand.

rejoice! rejoice! the tragedy is over1
we can breathe on each other’s birthday cakes
Again2

Metabolize, if Able by Clay Ad

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a book cover reads ‘Metabolize, if Able, a novel, Clay AD’ in a white hand drawn font. The cover of the book is grey. Two silhouetted facial profiles are turned toward eachother in a blue colour, their noses almost touching.

FUCKING PANSIES by Caspar Heinemann

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"Pansies love pansies because they are pansies, which is why they are pansies. The love of pansies is a red flag on the slippery slope to becoming a pansy, and the pansy is a pansy because pansy is the word for people who love pansies."

Excerpt from "FUCKING PANSIES: Queer Poetics, Plant Reproduction, Plant Poetics, Queer Reproduction" by Caspar Heinemann

Metabolize, if Able, a novel by Clay AD

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FUCKING PANSIES: Queer Poetics, Plant Reproduction, Plant Poetics, Queer Reproduction by Caspar Heinemann

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FUCKING PANSIES by Caspar Heinemann

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"Nature becomes a weaponized synonym for reproduction, and everything that does not directly contribute to the survival of a the species becomes an affront."

Excerpt from "FUCKING PANSIES: Queer Poetics, Plant Reproduction, Plant Poetics, Queer Reproduction" by Caspar Heinemann

Carceral Capitalism

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a black book cover with white sans serif text reads ‘Carceral Capitalism’, ‘Jackie Wang’ there is an abstract pattern of white lines like a zebra crossing under the title.

Carceral Capitalism by Jackie Wang

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as we all eat each other i’ll be hungry on the
sidelines1
waiting for my turn to be
consumed by the great wisdom of the age23

No Archive Will Restore You by Julietta Singh

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No Archive Will Restore You by Julietta Singh

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the body is also embodied1

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A bear in a small rowing boat. The water is a little choppy and there is a tree line in the distance that suggests this is a lake. The boat is blueish grey on the outside and white inside. The oars have blue paddles. The sky is blue with low whispy stratus clouds. Mary has added a label to the bear and the boat that says 'me and my medical ptsd off to try a new medical thing' The implication in the picture is that it's not likely to go very well because bears don't know how to use rowing boats.

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A screenshot of a twitter post by ‘woo woo woo’, handle @McgarrDana Black text on a white background reads 'accessibility isn’t more work, you were just cutting corners before. The work was incomplete'

meme by invalid__art

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A bear in a small rowing boat. The water is a little choppy and there is a tree line in the distance that suggests this is a lake. The boat is blueish grey on the outside and white inside. The oars have blue paddles. The sky is blue with low whispy stratus clouds. Mary has added a label to the bear and the boat that says 'me and my medical ptsd off to try a new medical thing' The implication in the picture is that it's not likely to go very well because bears don't know how to use rowing boats.

meme from @aborteddreams.

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A meme from @aborteddreams. Rover the blue fluffy character from Sesame Street with a round pink nose is smiling and waving in the middle of the image, dressed in surgical gear including plastic gloves and protective headwear and a mask pulled down around their neck. In the background there are a lot of medical apparatus and machinery giving the impression that we are in a hospital operating room. The background is bright yellow. Black text across the top right reads 'I’m sorry you can’t afford to be alive and other stories of America'

A screenshot of a twitter post by ‘woo woo woo’, handle @McgarrDana

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A screenshot of a twitter post by ‘woo woo woo’, handle @McgarrDana Black text on a white background reads 'accessibility isn’t more work, you were just cutting corners before. The work was incomplete
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Website: Pushkin podcasts: show: Be Antiracist with Ibram X. Kendi

'episode: Ableism & Racism: Roots of The Same Tree'

visit site: https://www.pushkin.fm/episode/ableism-racism-roots-of-the-same-tree/

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A meme from @aborteddreams. Rover the blue fluffy character from Sesame Street with a round pink nose is smiling and waving in the middle of the image, dressed in surgical gear including plastic gloves and protective headwear and a mask pulled down around their neck. In the background there are a lot of medical apparatus and machinery giving the impression that we are in a hospital operating room. The background is bright yellow. Black text across the top right reads 'I’m sorry you can’t afford to be alive and other stories of America' '

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you don’t need to make a big fuss12

just haul yourself up the steps with your hands34

or
here
we can carry you5

perfect lovers by Félix González-Torres

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Image of the artwork ‘perfect lovers’ by Félix González-Torres. Two analogue wall clocks are placed side by side on a white wall so they are pressed against eachother. Both the clocks are set to the time 5:52. As the artwork progresses, durationally, the clocks will eventually fall out of synch with each other.

don’t worry they’re not looking at you,
it’s just that you remind them of death1
they are looking at their own death

FORCED STERILIZATION OF DISABLED PEOPLE IN THE UNITED STATES

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Website: TALILA A. LEWIS website

'January 2021 Working Definition of Ableism'

visit site: https://www.talilalewis.com/blog/january-2021-working-definition-of-ableism

Deep purple and blue gradient background with the following words: ABLEISM a·ble·ism \ ˈābə-ˌli-zəm \ noun A system that places value on people’s bodies and minds based on societally constructed ideas of normality, intelligence, excellence, desirability, and productivity. These constructed ideas are deeply rooted in anti-Blackness, eugenics, misogyny, colonialism, imperialism and capitalism. This form of systemic oppression leads to people and society determining who is valuable and worthy based on a person’s language, appearance, religion and/or their ability to satisfactorily [re]produce, excel and 'behave.' You do not have to be disabled to experience ableism. a working definition by Talila 'TL' Lewis*; updated January 2021 *developed in community with Disabled Black and other negatively racialized people, especially Dustin Gibson

a working definition by Talila 'TL' Lewis*: ABLEISM a·ble·ism \ ˈābə-ˌli-zəm \ noun A system that places value on people’s bodies and minds based on societally constructed ideas of normality, intelligence, excellence, desirability, and productivity. These constructed ideas are deeply rooted in anti-Blackness, eugenics, misogyny, colonialism, imperialism and capitalism. This form of systemic oppression leads to people and society determining who is valuable and worthy based on a person’s language, appearance, religion and/or their ability to satisfactorily [re]produce, excel and "behave.' You do not have to be disabled to experience ableism.

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Deep purple and blue gradient background with the following words: ABLEISM a·ble·ism \ ˈābə-ˌli-zəm \ noun A system that places value on people’s bodies and minds based on societally constructed ideas of normality, intelligence, excellence, desirability, and productivity. These constructed ideas are deeply rooted in anti-Blackness, eugenics, misogyny, colonialism, imperialism and capitalism. This form of systemic oppression leads to people and society determining who is valuable and worthy based on a person’s language, appearance, religion and/or their ability to satisfactorily [re]produce, excel and "behave.' You do not have to be disabled to experience ableism. a working definition by Talila 'TL' Lewis*; updated January 2021 *developed in community with Disabled Black and other negatively racialized people, especially Dustin Gibson

FORCED STERILIZATION OF DISABLED PEOPLE IN THE UNITED STATES: 2021 report from the National Woman's Law Center

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photograph taken with a macro lens shows a dung beetle pushing a perfectly spherical ball of tongue towards a camels head. The camel is lying down on the sand and the macro lens and Low perspective of the photographer almost makes the camel appear to be a giant. Mary has added text over the photograph. Above the camel's head Mary has added a label that says 'the abled gaze TM' which is a term that some disabled people use to describe how nondisabled people and society view and portray disabled people, it is a semi humorous phrase which pokes at the deeply harmful impact in of a more powerful group being in control of the portrayal and narratives around the experiences of a more oppressed group (so I think it's important to state here that I do not believe that oppression is ever binary and flat, it is always complicated and nuanced for every single individual). Below that label Mary has added some pretend Quotes as if implying that they have come out of the mouth of the camel 'If I was you I would just end it all' 'heartbreaking' 'inspirational' 'I don't know how you do it'. next to the dung beetle Mary has added a label that says 'a disabled person just existing' This photo was taken from a feed on my [Mary’s] explore page and a page called Macro Turkey.

meme by invalid__art

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photograph taken with a macro lens shows a dung beetle pushing a perfectly spherical ball of tongue towards a camels head. The camel is lying down on the sand and the macro lens and Low perspective of the photographer almost makes the camel appear to be a giant. Mary has added text over the photograph. Above the camel's head Mary has added a label that says 'the abled gaze TM' which is a term that some disabled people use to describe how nondisabled people and society view and portray disabled people, it is a semi humorous phrase which pokes at the deeply harmful impact in of a more powerful group being in control of the portrayal and narratives around the experiences of a more oppressed group (so I think it's important to state here that I do not believe that oppression is ever binary and flat, it is always complicated and nuanced for every single individual). Below that label Mary has added some pretend Quotes as if implying that they have come out of the mouth of the camel 'If I was you I would just end it all' 'heartbreaking' 'inspirational' 'I don't know how you do it'. next to the dung beetle Mary has added a label that says 'a disabled person just existing' This photo was taken from a feed on my [Mary’s] explore page and a page called Macro Turkey.

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i’m grateful for your legs

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Photo of a transparent plastic bucket with a metal lid and metal handle. Inside the bucket, various bright pink and brown plastic penises and pressed together. Image care of Alx Velozo.

jar of packers

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Photo of a transparent plastic bucket with a metal lid and metal handle. Inside the bucket, various bright pink and brown plastic penises and pressed together. Image care of Alx Velozo.
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A meme from @RelaxDaww. There is text above a photograph. The text reads “DOCTORS SAID I HAVE A DISABILITY (cringe emoji) I TOLD HIM YOUR [sic] RIGHT, DIS ABILITY TO GET BREAD (steam coming out of nose emoji)(crying laughing emoji)(two money with wings emojis). The photograph shows a person with brown hair and brown skin wearing a cap, a white shirt and black trousers. They are holding a stack of dollar bills in their hand. They are sitting in an electric wheelchair. Their chin is lifted and they are smirking as if to say “and what??”. They are in what looks like a home environment with pictures hanging on the wall and a christmas tree in the background.

meme by @RelaxDaww

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A meme from @RelaxDaww. There is text above a photograph. The text reads “DOCTORS SAID I HAVE A DISABILITY (cringe emoji) I TOLD HIM YOUR [sic] RIGHT, DIS ABILITY TO GET BREAD (steam coming out of nose emoji)(crying laughing emoji)(two money with wings emojis). The photograph shows a person with brown hair and brown skin wearing a cap, a white shirt and black trousers. They are holding a stack of dollar bills in their hand. They are sitting in an electric wheelchair. Their chin is lifted and they are smirking as if to say “and what??”. They are in what looks like a home environment with pictures hanging on the wall and a christmas tree in the background.

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This Compost: Erotics of Rot

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Website: Ologies podcast

'episode: Indigenous Fire Ecology'

visit site: https://www.alieward.com/ologies/goodfire?rq=indigenous

screenshot taken from the Ologies podcast page linked to above: an episode with Amy Christianson called 'Indigenous Fire Ecology'. The screenshot is from the Alie Ward website and features the episode cover of a smiling closeup photo of Amy Christianson. Please click on the link above to visit the site.

This Compost: Erotics of Rot

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The Three-Body Problem

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A blue book with the title THE THREE-BODY PROBLEM in bold capitalized semi transparent yellow text. There is a large pyramid in the center of an illustration and a small figure walking towards it.

THE THREE-BODY PROBLEM by Liu Cixin

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World Science Festival: Quantum Reality

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My body is a compass. It’s made of stars. It’s the interlocutor between me and the world. Being sick, and figuring out how to be sick, is a speculative practice. The speculation has no end and is no means to an end. My body is a balloon tethered to a brick. It’s also the brick. And the string.

from: CAROLYN LAZARD - THE WORLD IS UNKNOWN - https://www.canopycanopycanopy.com/contents/the-world-is-unknown

i hold my own hand1

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Website: blindarchive.substack.com

'On Marta Russell’s Money Model of Disability'

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Website: Are you for sale podcast

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screenshot taken from the Are you for sale podcast homepage linked to above. It is a dark green header section and there is a small logo that says 'Are you for sale?' next to a microphone. The largest text on the page reads 'A podcast about the ethical entanglements between money and art-making.' Please click on the link above to visit the site.

Substack Article

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make the most of that dark room
channel that pain into your art
this lack of productivity can make your product
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True Love Will Find You In The End by Daniel Johnston

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Website: Politico.com

Article: 'Suicide hotline shares data with for-profit spinoff, raising ethical questions'

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screenshot taken from the politico article linked to above titled 'Suicide hotline shares data with for-profit spinoff, raising ethical questions'. The screenshot includes this article title, along with the subhead: 'The Crisis Text Line’s AI-driven chat service has gathered troves of data from its conversations with people suffering life’s toughest situations', and a red graphic that features different phrases in white boxes, including 'What is depression?' and 'Message Us'. Please click on the link above to visit the site.

Politico Article

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CAPITALISM WILL FIND YOU IN THE END12

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Website: pipagaopoetry on bigcartel

'immunocompromised people are worth protecting' stickers

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screenshot taken from pipagaopoetry on bigcartel, featuring a coming-soon banner for 12 packs of stickers. On the right side there is a white hand holding a group of stickers splayed out like playing cards, they are about the size of a playing card but square and have a picture of flowers with blue sky behind them and text that reads 'immunocompromised people are worth protecting'. On the left there is info about how to order them, saying they are $28 and all profits go towards families affected by Lytton Fire https://linktr.ee/shianna_mc. Please click on the link above to visit the site.

did you see the burning?1
or were you tucked up in bed?

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"Transition is always a relief. Destination means death to me. If I could figure out a way to remain forever in transition, in the disconnected and unfamiliar, I could remain in a state of perpetual freedom."

Excerpt from Close to the Knives: A Memoir of Disintegration by David Wojnarowicz

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"It matters what matters we use to think other matters with; it matters what stories we tell to tell other stories with; it matters what knots knot knots, what thoughts think thoughts, what descriptions describe descriptions, what ties tie ties. It matters what stories make worlds, what worlds make stories."

Excerpt from Staying with the Trouble: Making Kin in the Chthulucene by Donna J. Haraway

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"Let's start with the end of the world, why don't we? Get it over with and move on to more interesting things."

Excerpt from The Fifth Season (The Broken Earth, #1) by N.K. Jemisin

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"We're each of us alone, to be sure. What can you do but hold your hand out in the dark?"

Excerpt from The Wind's Twelve Quarters, Volume 1 by Ursula K. Le Guin

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"I'm not the kind of faggot who wants to put a rainbow sticker on a machine gun."

CA Conrad

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"There is no end
To what a living world
Will demand of you."

Excerpt from Parable of the Sower (Earthseed, #1) by Octavia E. Butler

i heard your protest
walk by me
from my sickbed
you all sounded great
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