LOADING
film by RA Walden
(sign language version)
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transcript
my grandson bought an acre of land farmed
by ants ranching aphids
wrangling the beasts for honeydew
massive tax hikes and uninsurable wine cellars
i saw a lake burning
bodies boiling in the water
how can i make you feel better about myself?
at some point you either have to get on board
or get gone
what is your Big Vision for your life?
make a list of 5 small tasks
you can accomplish today
take that list shove it in your mouth and swallow
wash it down with vitamin water
donate my body to science
all of the scientists
drowning in wastewater
all of the experts
waiting to be published
stop apologising and get busy stockpiling your
basement with beans
i swallowed the cannon and never got up again
it ripped through my deck and my feet
touched the lava and I ran out of lives
come hither and take me into your mouth
i am host virus vessel void
don’t worry it’s not contagious
the lake is boiling again
1000 years of fog
osmoting into the future
we are not united in the hating of the enemy
if that enemy is my body
i did all my gratitudes and i can still smell the smoke
there’s only so much you can ask a person to let go of
who is living inside you?
grow your own specialist
be your only believer
rejoice! rejoice! the tragedy is over
we can breathe on each other’s birthday cakes again
as we all eat each other i’ll be hungry on the
sidelines waiting for my turn to be
consumed by the great wisdom of the age
the body is also embodied
you don’t need to make a big fuss
just haul yourself up the steps with your hands
or
here
we can carry you
don’t worry they’re not looking at you,
it’s just that you remind them of death
they are looking at their own death
hug your children tighter
i hope you feel invigorated
carpe fucking dm
i’m grateful for your legs
the only kind of porn i’m into is inspiration porn
here i am baby
ready to be your top dollar money maker
dick in hand
my lake is on fire
i visualise the 5th dimension
i hold my own hand
make the most of that dark room
channel that pain into your art
this lack of productivity can make your product
incredibly powerful
CAPITALISM WILL FIND YOU IN THE END
where is the mother now?
did you see the burning?
or were you tucked up in bed?
i heard your protest
walk by me
from my sickbed
you all sounded great
congrats